How do I get out my complete and utter ANGER about being not only a fucking WOMAN in this piece of shit patriarchal society but a BLACK woman at that! Please don’t twist my words, please if you’ll understand anything understand this, I absolutely love who I am. I am proud to be Black as well as a woman but do people ever stop to realize how frustrating this combination could be. Let me not be selfish here, as I know all people of color face injustice, unequal treatment, and a whole slew of other oppressions but what the fuck ever, I’m going to be selfish right now. Usually I keep these rants to myself or share them briefly with my mom but what I just saw on the internet right now raised my blood pressure way beyond normal. I came across a facebook comment on a picture of a confederate flag (go figure) that read “if u ask me the movie for colored girls only is racist if us white folk made a movie for white girls only there would b a major issue…..” WELL I WONDER WHY YOU DAMN IMBECILE! I hope you know your privilege is showing! If you knew anything kid, you’d know that first of all that’s not what the movie was called. It was called ‘For Colored Girls’ which was based off the book ‘For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide When the Rainbow is Enuf.’ And if you knew anything else, you’d know it was about recognizing colored girls struggles which are never recognized. To be a white, healthy, cis-gendered male in this world means you can pretty much say whatever the fuck you’d like because you are untouchable. You are gods gift to the earth. You are the normal. You are the right. Am I right? Is this not how privileged ass fucks like this kid think? For whoever reads this please do not think that I am prejudice. I really wish I could articulate my thoughts much more intelligently right now but I’m pissed and fed up. I’m pissed and fed up not over the comment but the fact that it made me realize that I deal with fucktards like that in my own personal life every single day I wake up. I think what also pissed me off is that he was upset about the fact that there is something out there that empowers colored girls. Every single thing in the media, on tv, in every movie, in music tells white girls that they are beautiful, that they are normal, they can identify with anything and everything. Colored girls have NOTHING. Do you know how many times I get told that my hair is “weird” or “different” or “why do you wear it like that” because I refuse to comb it. I refuse to change my natural hair state to live up to European standards of beauty. Or how many times people tell me that I don’t act like a normal black person or identify a stereotype with me or tell me that I need to be this way or that way to live up to their expectation of a black person. Do you know how many times I’ve heard that black women are less attractive because we are simply BLACK. Do you know how many times people of all of colors and genders have said awful horrendous things about black women. It’s everywhere. The stereotypes, the comments, the hatred; it is EVERYWHERE. And people like that kid have the audacity to say that it’s a problem when someone wants to uplift girls of color. Well look here, if you catch yourself being a privileged ass white person and you think it’s a problem for any person of color to make other people of color feel good about themselves, please go fuck yourself because you my dear are a complete and utter self-righteous, narrow minded, idiot. None of which are good qualities. Also if not a single thing I said made sense, please google search “white privilege” hopefully that’ll help. Lastly, if anyone even tries to call me a racist you can fuck off. Because I am last person in the world that could possibly be racist. For fucks sake reverse racism doesn’t exist today and won’t exist tomorrow, give it up.
The roundness of my stomach grosses me the fuck out. I was so happy when I was 108. I felt and looked amazing.